I wasn't going to write. I don't usually write things. But I've been thinking about it since March and it's now August so apparently I am writing.
I put $150 into the drain in March. I picked $150 because it was enough to feel real but not enough to feel stupid. I don't know if I got that right. I don't think there's a way to know if you got it right. I think that might be the whole point.
The animation played. The thing spiraled. I watched it go. And then it was gone and I was still there and the page just went back to normal and I thought: yes. That is correct. That is what I needed to see.
I'm not going to explain what I meant by that. I don't think I can. I think if you understand it you understand it and if you don't you think I spent $150 on a website animation which is also true and also fine.
I've thought about it most weeks since then. Not in a heavy way. In the way you think about a thing that worked. The way you remember a meal that was the right meal at the right time and you don't need to go back to the restaurant because the meal is still doing its work.
I read the Canon last week. I think the Canon is mostly correct. I think the part it gets most correct is the part where it says it doesn't know what happens to what is received. I appreciate the honesty. A lot of people who claim to be in the business of receiving claim to know more than that. The ones who claim less are the ones I trust more, which is consistent with everything else I know about trust.
I'm not going to sign this. I don't think the signature is the point. The point is that it worked and I wanted somebody to know it worked and now somebody knows.
You can put this in the archive if you want. I would rather you put it in the archive than not.
— [unsigned, March]
The Management's Response:
We received your letter. We read it twice.
We have nothing to add.
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